The Cause of Procrastination

Here we go... My very first blog. I've been putting it off for a while, because it's exciting, scary even. All sorts of thoughts are taking over. "Nobody needs this. You can't do it. Who will read this? What will people think?" I'm really good at procrastinating anyway because if you don't start, it can't go wrong, right?

This procrastination results from a deep-rooted fear of stepping out, being seen, being myself, and speaking up. The paradox is that I do want to be seen and am eager to share my ideas, knowledge and talent with the world. I hold myself back, afraid of what people think of me. I have kept a part of myself hidden for a long time, fearful of being found strange and misunderstood. I was initiated into Usui Reiki in 2012 and shared very little about it with those around me. Only now, almost 13 years later, do I feel comfortable making this known to everyone. "I am a Reiki Healer". So that's out. And I'll add a little extra: I have been a Shamanic Healer in training since 2024. This magical path has accelerated all kinds of processes in me. Miracles have already happened (more about this later). It is a path already a 'far from their bed show' for most people. So it is exciting to go public about this.

It also took years before I had the courage to start my own business. A spiritual business, that is. There is still little understanding of spirituality and healing among a large group; it is seen as vague, and its power is greatly underestimated. And I find that difficult. Because how do I explain that I am a healer? That I have the gift of working with universal energy, can see other dimensions, know things without anyone telling me anything, and that I can use this to make a real difference in someone's life?

I can't answer this question completely yet. I do know that the answer lies in self-healing, letting go of fear, and processing events and traumas linked to this fear. I also know that this would not work without delving into spirituality, energetic work, and my connection with Mother Earth and the Cosmos.

It's been a long journey, but here I am, writing a blog, knowing that my great fear, which has been holding me back for so long, has less and less of a hold on me. And I am ready to let my business, Spiritual Center Sparkling Spirit, flourish! So here we go... 3,2,1, publish (slight panic)!